Very long night.

9.3.2011


  Last night i got way to drunk, and ended up explaining the dream the night before involving people in my life who had passed. Where i fucked up was saying it in front of the people it more than likely would've hurt the most. But im happy i let it out. The Dream had been eating at me all day and into the night.

   To make it better though, i ended up connecting with someone on a new level than what we were already at. Josh gets it, when other people don't atleast he listens very well. Couldn't have asked for a better person to take care of you Georgi. :)

  Love the people in my life. Ill miss you all.

Me or You?

8.28.2011

Usually id turn to myself and blame myself for why i feel so shitty.

This time is different. Its some of the people surrounding me and they're lack of understanding, care, and outright intelligence. I sound so conceded and selfish. But honestly, when is someone gonna cut ME a fucking break? 

I thought i was getting better. Slowly, inch by inch, getting better. Apparently i am but the people around me getting worse and worse. Sigh i dont even feel like continuing this post. 

That shit that drives me crazy.

8.24.2011

         How we supposed to stay friends when you gotta a bunch of feelings you don't show?
  If you think your unique, the odds are you probably aren't.  I'm sure we've all gone through the dating games and the "friends" you care about bullshit. But how is anything ever supposed to move forward if the only time you say anything is when your drunk as fuck? I know that doesn't work for me. But then again I come off so strong due to my open mouth that may be the major player in it. So here's a promise I'm going to make to myself. I promise to keep myself more calm and more reserved, and to focus on how I'm doing as a person. I need to be happy.